It’s okay to be proud of yourself.

Hello dear,

I am writing these words while half-sitting/half-lying on my couch in my flat in Berlin. Yesterday I went to a friend’s Birthday (ok, it kind of turned into a sleep-over, so loved that when I was a child, didn’t you too?) and I’m recalling the events of last night.

Do you ever catch yourself at telling a story you kind of feel ashamed of because you think others will ridicule for it, even though you’re actually proud of it? Ok, that was one confusing sentence! I’ll simply tell you what happened to me last night, it really upsets me thinking about it now: So the thing is, I used to be part of a group of jugglers. We would wear medieval costumes, sleep and live in tents and we would make appearances on renaissance festivals. We were kind of living like people did back then, simple compared to today, we would eat, juggle, sleep, that was it. And I loved it. I loved it so much and I was incredibly proud of the group and of myself. I felt like I could do something others couldn’t. And I loved showing what I can do.

So yesterday, we were talking about theme parks. In Germany, the biggest one is in Rust, it’s called “Europapark”, and every year they would hire our group to perform for the visitors. That is what I told them. The point is that I didn’t express it like I was proud of myself but my voice soften and my eyes would move away from their faces and towards the floor. I felt ashamed of something I had loved so much. Fortunately, my girlfriends are amazing and immediately told me I needn’t be embarrassed for it (they got the excitement with juggling 😉 ). However, thinking about it now makes me angry. I was scared of being ridiculed so I started it myself. exerted shame on myself because I thought that’s what the others would expect me to do.

So, lovely, let me tell you: Never, ever, ever, ever, ever feel ashamed for something you really really are proud of. Never feel ashamed for your quirks, preferences or skill (however freaky or absurde they may seem, I’m sure they are amazing!) because that’s what really makes you you! And that is amazing! Otherwise, we would all be the same, same old boring everyday.

Darling, never feel ashamed of yourself. You are perfect the way you are. And you are brave enough to champion your cause. And not only will YOU love yourself for it, others will notice it too and won’t even think about trying to ridicule you (except if they suck, that’s not your problem though). They will think that you’re on badass woman (which you absolutely are)!

Be proud of yourself!

Today (and every day) I want you to celebrate yourself! Stand up for your opinion and never ever allow others to impose shame on you!

You are RAD!

Love always,

Josephine

When life wears you down, how do you get back your glow?

Dear precious reader,

it’s been some time since I last uploaded a text on here and I want to say: I’m sorry for that. Do you know these times of low-energy, low-motivation and an overall feeling of being stuck? That’s exactly what happened to me the last few weeks and still goes on in some respect.

I was thinking what is going on, asking myself what I could do to end this time of barrenness and unhappiness. Is it really life that is wearing me down or am I the own to be made responsible? (I guess you already know what the answer to this question is, right?)

It is me!

It is me, my past, my future, my thoughts, my experiences, my fears, my not existing dealing with important issues in my life. Indecisiveness really takes your peppiness! (How awesome is this word, by the way?)

So my first step to get out of this cycle of unproductiveness and dissatisfaction was to leave my home town and and make my way to the place of my wildest dreams: Berlin. It is amazing how some of my inner tensions disappeared the moment more than 100 kilometers separated me from the small town I come from. Old emotional ballast escaped my chest and I felt like I could breathe again. Moreover, I suddenly felt my brain opening up again, making room for new ideas, new adventures and a new me.

Then, university started and I was back in this place of feeling insufficient, overwhelmed and helpless.

So much work to do, new faces, new syllables, it can all be overwhelming at times.

But: University is for widening your horizon, expanding your knowledge about things that really interest you, that excite your passion! University is not a place of misery but a place for growth and fun!

I think it’s so amazing how our body shows us exactly what we need: since I am under constant pressure (induce by this girl here!), I feel a strong urge to buy all things that smell like rose; I got myself a hand cream smelling like rose, tea made of rose bud…And I told a friend about this sudden need for rosy things. She told me that she always drinks a cup of the rose bud tea when she needs to calm down. Rose apparently has a soothing effect on our bodies. It’s amazing, right?

Now, I want to know how you cope when you’re feeling low or when your chest feels constricted..how do you cope? What are your techniques?

Lovely, I wish you a wonderful and exciting day!

Love,

Josephine